Wow hey havent written in a while, welll ugh DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA, I HATE IT. well ugh Ms Donna new i wanted to get Nick a cell phone and be on my plan, and yeah, and i got real upset b.c i wanted to get him the phone, and im getting a camera phone and nicks getting one, and i get a discount b.c of where my dad works, and i wnted to get him the phone, and he talked to his mom about it and now i get to get him a phone, im happy. and yeah.  ugh.  schools okay, almost out, my bday is in 16 days, im happy!! yay. well comment me.

love you Nick

well today, boring. I felt sick at school alll day, and yeah. Coach said that he had seen an improvement, (which is great) and yeah i was pissed off after school, idk why, and yeah.. Nick was getting on my nerves.

I went to his game tonight, we lost of course, and yeah. I sat with brettt. good stuff.

Oh how i would love to be pregnant.. being a mother and wife. I want to be married to my love and have a baby with him. My dreams will come true soon. I love you Nick.

Lets just say, Today could have been better but it was okay. We’ll go peice my peice.

Church- Everything went well, the recongnation for the seniors went today, so i have to go to a little bit of the 11 o’clock service. It was good.

Car ride to Nick- Brett called Nick and wanted to know if Nick wanted to go golfiing, Nick  said yes, and i got really upset, I didnt show it tho, and Tony wanted me to go check out his new video game.

Nicks house- so we went in there, i started crying and Nick was like trying to hug me and i pushed him away, Cuz i didnt want him touching me, and i was really upset b.c me and nick made these plans to go to his house after church, then of course BRETT had to screw them up, so that upset me, and yeah. Then i started crying realy bad, and went to the bathroom and i was in there forever and Nick was like Lauren let me in, lets talk.  I was crying and i was like no, he kept asking what was wrong and i told him nothing, he was like then why are you crying, and i was like b.c i can, and soo  yeah, then i finaly told him, and Nick was like well im calling brett and telling him i cant go, and i was like no dont do that, and then brett called and asked if nick was ready and he wasnt and they were going to a more expensive place and Nick was like i dont have that money so i dont wanna go, Then Nick told his mom that i got upset and that he wasnt going, and she was like ”Are you telling the truth or are you trying to make lauren happy” annd that hurt me so bad, and i told Nick i needed a min, and i went under Nicks covers and just started ballin’ what she said made me hurt so bad, but then Nick held me and we got better, so yeah. That could have been better.

Then we ate lunch, and played n 64, and then we went and watched a movie and I colored, then we went to steak and shake for some shakes, that was good, then they took me home, and me and mom went to to store, when we got there Nick and them were there, so i got to see him again. and here i am. Yeah.

Ive been coloring alot lately, b.c it helps take my mind off eating, soo yea.

well, who really sat here and read this whole thing? NO ONE.

xoxo Lauren