Im gonna start with a dream i had last night, then ill tell you about the last couple of days.

The dream- The dream started when i was delivering. My babies were comming out of me. One boy one girl.. they were my twins. I didnt feel a thing, cuz they had so much of that stuff in me. then we were going home, and i was holding my babies. and they had there cute little clothes on, and i dont know where Nick was, he wasnt in the dream at all, it was just me and my mom. and we went home, and they had there 2 little cribs.  it was so precious. everyone was comming over to see my babys. it was fun. We went to wal mart to get more outfits, it was great. Then i asked my mom, ”Did i really have babies?” and she said yes,, and i was so excited. then i woke up. and look around… no babies. just me. it was disapointing, but it made me relize how awesome its gonna be. and i cant wait.

Saturday, Michelle called me at 8 30, and and said im bored lets do something, she wanted to go bowling, and since she doesnt have a car, she needed a ride. So i called Nick and asked him if he wanted to go bowling but he had to pick up some people. and he said yeah, so me him Michelle, Katie, and Anthony, all got in Nicks little car, and went bowling. yeah.. it was fun.

Anyways, yesterday went to church, then went to nicks house, had a great time.  Had ribs. they were good. and just hung out. talked about having a baby. he said if i was his age, he would. that made me sad, made it feel like it was my fault, and he told me it wasnt. No one knows how bad i want a baby. no one. yeah. we all sat around and talked. and yeah i guess it was good. then i came home and painted my toes, and Nick gave me money to go to the tanning bed, but then i remember i cant find my goggles. so i cant go till i find them.soo yeah.

well thats all i gotta say. leave me comments.

I love Nick, and my future Madison.

Hey. Well yesterday was a werid day. Nick was supose to be here at 10, at 11 30 he showed up, i was pissed. I hate it when he does that, i was gonna break up with him, i no thats a little thing, but thats my biggest pet peeve, PEOPLE NOT BEING ON TIME!! grrrr. But then he said he was with his mom so i let it slide.. that time.  i mean, hes late all the time, hes gonna be late to our wedding, ugh!

but anyways, we slip n slided yesterday, down that huge hill, the boys got beat up, I didnt tho!  lol, but finally we moved it to flat surface, that was fun to me. Lol.  then i went to Nicks house, we watched TV, made out.. you no, the regular. yeah, then we went to Bobbys baseball game. then back to Nicks house, fooled around there, had a long talk, and we cried together, (Im not gonna say why) then we got over it and held each other. Then we had burger king, then it was time to go home. and yeah. That was my whole day!!

well thats all ive got. I prolly wont do anything today os, i probably wont write again, but leave comments.

Me and Nicks diet starts today!! Wish us good luck!!!

xoxo, Lauren

wow, well tuesday i got my permit, yeah, so you’ve read. and i went to Michelles house to spend the night, we had a good time, Me Michelle, Arianna, Sam, Bobby and Chris.. all us kids in the little house, it was crazy, but we all manage to get a good place to sleep, and it was all good, i watched the kids while Michelle tried to get her lisence on thursday, but she was too late.

Then- I went to the dentist, got cavitires filled, i hate being numb for 4 hours. It was bad, but oh well. Then mom went to church at 6 and she got home at 10 and i did not know it would take that long, so im freaking out cuz she cant drive good a night, and no one would answer there phones!!! soo.. yeah, but i called Nick and he was like well shes still at church and i was like good, and my dad stayed in opealika (sp) so i was by myself, and  i was worried about my mom. but everything was okay.

Today- Nick came over at 8 30, and we went to the church, went to Freds and went to his moms work, then went to McDonalds then went to Walmart, i bought a slip-n-slide, took it over to memaws, me and Michelle had so much fun on it!! it was great, then we tanned. fun.

Nick and Tony are comming over tomarrow to play on it. !!!im happy. yall no how i have that HUGE hil in my back yard? yeah well were gonna put the slip n slide down it!! hah! gonna be fun! so if ya wanna come, come over to my house tomarrow!! gonna be fun!!

MICHELLE GOT HER LISENCE!! YAY!!!

lol, thats all. I love Nick

Love, Lauren.

PS, that took forever to write.

Who really read all that???

I GOT MY PERMIT!!! YAY!! I only missed 2 questions!!! It was great!! go me!!! yeah, and i got to drive the trailblazer, i dont like that too much, i like a car. yeah. it was fun!! well thats all i gotta say now!! SEE YA

ILOVENICK

I truly and forrealy lost my virginity yesterday. I no i have b4, but.. not like yesterday. Yesterday was different.

BUT DONT WORRY, God is punishing me.. I study all day, and last night, and alot b4 for my permit test, I misssed 7… I cried. Dont tell Nick tho. It was terrible, im so depresed i havent even talked. Ugh. I hate it.  Going in the mornig to retake it. I studied alot of SHIT, NONE IS IT WAS ON THE TEST!!! lil fuckers.

Well yesterday me and nick went to this party thing, and we got in the pool, he pushed me in, then he got in with me. I love him. yeah, well thats all i gotta say.

Btw, whoever left me that comment saying ”Dont put that in you xanga”
Go fuck a duck, i dont give a shit what you think, you dont have to read my xanga if you dont like it.

Im about to tell you something you might not wanna know, Nick just cummed in my mouth, i hate that. It was the first time and it was gross.  He said i did good, but when we were done i gagged when i was spitting it out, we did 69, he was fingering me, and i blowing him. yeah..

I no you didnt wanna no, but i had to say it.

Anyways, Im going to this thing tonight, fun stuff, with nick, it’ll be great, had a good time yesterday with Nick an Brett and yeah.

Thats all i gotta say.

Love ya.

YESTERDAY WAS MY BIRTHDAY!!!

IM 15!! I dont know when im getting my permit… but oh well.

Anyways, yesterday was crazy! but, WE DID HAVE GRADUATION. it was awesome.

Went to work with mom-her kids are crazy, and STUPID!! It was retarded, and with my birthday money i got nick a book. weeelllll.. it started hailing, it was insane, went to the mall they didnt have a book store. finally got the book, it stoped raining, went home got ready for graduation, and went. It was nice, I was the first person Nick called after graduation! I felt special. Nicks uncles were in town too, but yeah. Then we went to up the creek. that was gooooooood food, we should go there again. It was fun! Then we went back to my house, to get my birthday stuff, and Nick got me a Dixie girl bear, and rock for your foot, and a fossill wallet. then his mom got me, Frozen daquarai.. or however yoou spell it, and lotion of the same, lotion and spray, yeah it was grreat, then went home went to bed. Not special, i guess the birthday i had was one thursday, but we made a cake and we’re blowing it out today! YAY

Well fun fun fun. see ya later.

Everything i got for my birthday from memaw.

Corona night pants
2 shirts
A dress
shoes
Avon Makeup

Wow, i just got back from being with Nick all day, well he came over at 10.. then we went to Emerald Falls, played putt putt and go carts, and games, fun. Then we went to eat with his mom and Tony, then we went by his house so tony could get something and nick could get my year book, then dropped tony off, got to my house, read our year books, and he did something to me, and i did something to him, he was only here 5 min to, he had to go to work.
haha,  i had fun!

Graduation might be canceled.  I feel sooo bad for Nick, He said hes gonna cry if they dont have graduation. I will too. I feel so sorry for him and b.c i bought a new outfit for graduation. SPENT 2 HOURS LOOKING FOR SHOES. and bought nail polish to go with the outfit, Ima be pissed.

leave em sweet.

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I had a great time last night, went swimming it was great. Nick couldnt go but he called me and i told him to call me back in a hour. he said okay, I had to call him at 9 15. I hate, and he hung up on me and i hung up on him. Why does he do shit like that? and yesterday i bought him a little baloon that says i love you and a candy bar. and then he does shit like that. ugh! i hate it! ugh but yeah. Then last night, i was really upset about all that, and my head was killing me from swimming, i wooke up at 2 and couldnt walk, my head was killing me so bad, but i did get some pain releiver. and yeah, i feel better.

Well me and nick are going putt putting today. Lol. how funn. and you no gradiation might be canceled b.c of the rain! IT CANT BE, i just bought a whole new outfit!!!

ugh, that will piss me off.

well thats all i gotta say, ill bbl.

I love you Nick

Love, Lauren

MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMARROW!!!

Just to let everyone know, Im not pregnant, and Im not gonna be pregnant.

I just want one.

and yesterday, I read ALL my entries on my old xanga, it made me feel good, even tho i was depressed most of the time. But yeah, it said about me and Nick, me and Mary, and me and Shawn. wow, 3 relationships in like 2 monthes. wow. But this one is my favorite, even tho i miss shawn, i love Nick. Yeah well see ya

Love, Lauren

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I just wanna talk, i dont care if anyone reads this, but like, You know how Nick doesnt like me talking about having a baby all the time, yeah well ive decided that if i stop talking about it, he’ll wanna have a baby sooner, so like dont  you think he’ll want a baby by the end of 10th grade, I just want him ready to have a baby, im not saying im gonna have a baby, but, today when we say those baby chicks, i was like aww, they are so cute, i cant wait to have kids, and he was like yeah.. ugh. I wanted him to say  ”Me too Lauren” and kiss me, but no he just looked at the ducks and said yeah. That got on my nerves. But oh well, i dont need a baby now anyways, and Im gonna have fun. I just wish i could stop thinking about it. but okay.

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I fall more inlove with you everyday.

I love you Nick, You are the sweetest guy i have ever met. You guys, today, he picked me up at 8 30. took us to the school to get our year books, btw they are super cool. Then we went to the park. And had a picnic, then we went swinging, and tire swinging, and then walked around the pond, there were BABY DUCKS, they we beautiful. Then we went by his moms work, to show the year books, I just got thru signing Nicks, it took up 3 pages. It was awesome. Now hes at work, so Im gonna tan today, maybe take a walk, idk. Just hang out. Ill be bored. So call me.

I love you Nicholas.

Love, Lauren