Wow. Its been a long time. My internet has been down for forever!! Its been crazy. But today we got it fixed. Bretts gf is in town and we’ve all been togehter. me and Nick had a fall out. but we’re okay now. yeah. I dont wanna go all into that.  but yeah. My friends from VA came down! yeah!!! Leanne and Sarah. soo yeah. I love Nick.

Uhh.. blah. summer.. summer. its been okay. yeah. Nothing really too exciting.

I LOVE NICK

I will be updating more. but its really late right now. and i gotta go to the hospital for my peepaw tomarrow. so yeah. see ya laters.

comment me.

Well, yesterday after Nick got off we went and got Tony, then went to books a million and big lots and k-mart. It was fun. I bought a book. The Sisterhood of The Traveling Pants. Yeah (just got it and im half way thru it.. Go me!)  yeah, then I spent the night at my memaws w/ Bobby and Racheal. Yea we had a good time, we woke up at 6 and went to the Tennis court, We had a good time, but everyone sucks.  Yeah then we went back home at 8 and had a big breakfast.  Then at 9 I went to sleep and slept til 11.  I would have slept longer if Bobby wasnt a pain in the ass!! but thats okay. Then i read my book for a long time. Nick came by on his break. I LOVE HIM!! and iwent swimming at Racheals and Stephs. It was fun. Now im here and yeah. Mom gave me 20 $ to go get shorts tomarrow cant wait!!

I dont think we’re gonna be going to the water park on tuesday, its supose to rain. That makes me sad. Oh yeah one of my contacts broke so i only have one… and i cant see that good. I HATE IT!! ugh! and it gives me a head ache when i read. oh well. Ive been missing my Meet The Barkers. I love that show.

Oh yeah, tomarrow Nick has a day off, so im all his tomarrow! yay!! its gonna be fun!

Well im gonna go read on my book.

I love you Nicky-bug.  

T.E.N.N.I.S…. Its what I do.
Yes, Im taking up tennis. Its hard right now cuz i suck, actually getting better. but yeah. Im getting over that baby thing and moving on to a sport. Still want a baby, but that wont happen.

Sorry i havent updated in a while, been kinda busy. Well Shawn finally graduated, soo… My boys are done with High sschool. lol Yeah, SUMMER TIME! This is my normal summer day: 8-11 am watch Lifetime 11-5 pm is MTV, then my  nights are spent with Nick. So yeah. 

For the next 2 weeks, mom has to go to a workshop, so im home alone for the next 2 weeks, which is good. Cuz I always need a break from the rents. Yeah. Blah.

I cant wait until we go to the water p ark!! its gonna be kick ass!! lol. I cant wait. the bad thing is we’re taking Tony and i really dont want too. BUT  oh well.

LEAVE COMMENTS! love yall!!

Hey yall. Thanx for all the comments the other day. welll.. blah. I decided to take up tennis. So yeah. Me and Nick are doing that together. yeah. uhh.. blah nothing has really been happening latley, just living life. yeah.

blah. gonna go.

ugh, well here i am eating ice cream for breakfast. yeah. Thanx everyone for all the advice. Still havent started my period yet.. Im kinda like on the edge of my seat. I really want this, I would love to be a mom. and Id still graduate in 08. I just wouldnt have to take all those extra courses. You know? Like home ec..ect.. and yeah. I cant afford a baby right now tho.. Oh well.  Im not gonna get my hopes up, b/c once i do, my period will start. Well anyway….
I woke up at 3 this morning, thought i was gonna throw up. Luckily, I didnt. Ew. I hate throwing up. Oh well. I hope its a girl.. ya know.. if i am having a baby. anyway, I couldnt get comfortable, i stacked 3 pillow togehter, laid there for a while, then got tired of that, by this time its 4, so i just decided to keep my eyes closed til i fel asleep, and it wasnt long, and finally i did. Yeah.. well I probably woould have slept until 9, but nick called at 8 30, and said he wanted to hear my beautiful voice b4 he went to work since we didnt talk last night. Yeah, well I dont know if ill get to write again today cuz its my aunts birthday,and she lives way out.. i dont know what time we’re going. but oh well.
I really wanna be pregnant.

Talk to yall later. Keep the comments comming.

edit-… I think i just started my period… to be honest,, I really thought i was pregnant.

Im probably really upset, but im gonna try not to show it. Im gonna get over. Okay, im not pregnant, so what? i dont need to be right now. and this is good, my period started, and it will be over tuesday, which is good, b/c i go to the water park on the 14. So my period will be over.

Im ok. I want a baby tho.

Ahh!! I want to thanx everyone for the comments yesterday! You guys rule. and I still dont know how to get that music thing to work.. soo.. could someone tell me…?

Thanx

Last night i went to Nicks house. We watched Emporers New Groove. lol.. I love that movie. Then watched blue collar comedy tour. I love those too!! lol.  Yeah, it  was fun. This little boy came over, and he was the cutest thing. And Nick told me that hes nervous about having a baby, thats why he doesnt like it when i talk about it. Sooo.. yeah. I thought he was ready… Guess not.

I burnt my finger this morning. OW! it hurts. But i called my grandmother, and she knows someone who can talk the fire out of it. ..it worked. now i dont feel a thing, just have a blister. but it hurt.

Im gonna stop eating. Only fruits, veggietables and water..

My period hasnt come yet, but it always 2 days late.. and today would be the second day. But I do want a baby, but you no how last week on thursday and friday i played on this slip n slide… dontcha think that hurt the baby?… Thats the only  reason i dont want this baby if i am pregnant. It probably wont be healthy, b/c ive squished it and i dont want it to have to suffer in this world as a unhealthy baby… Dont you think?

Tell me what i should do please…. Just incase i am pregnant.

Me and Nick decided what to do if Im preggo. We would find out if the baby is okay, and fine. B.c i didnt know i was pregnant and i played on a slip n slide. soo i probably hurt the baby. So if i am, we’ll go to the Dr. if the Dr. says ive hurt the baby, we’re gonna have an abortion, we dont want the baby having to suffer because of me. Thats gonna be really hard for me thats why. this once, I hope im not pregnant.

mixed feelings

HOPE EVERYONE LIKES NEW LAYOUT.. That music box doesnt work.. if you no how to work it. please tell me.

I had another dream about a baby. I was at the church baby sitting the cutest little girl.. i think she was like 6 monthes. She was so cute. but i didnt know who her parents were, but it was at night. and i kept trying to get her in bed. and i kept changing her clothes.. aww. I want a baby!

My period is late again.. it always is.. but i wish it was on time.. sometimes it is.. but ugh.. ever since ive wanted a baby.. my period has been late.. why does my body wanna joke around with me like that? gosh.. always gets my hopes up….

But anyways… Yesterday me and Nick went to wal mart to get his car fixed, and we played hide in go seek… lol it was fun. Then we went to Me memaws.. and Bobby was there, so we all played around. it was fun.

Me and Nick were supose to go to Books a million to get some books today, but like everything.. nick has to change the plans. ugh. it pisses me off so much when someone changes the planns. We’re going to the water park on the 14.. and if that gets changed i dont know what im gonna do.. ugh.. sometimes i think i can find someone better.. isnt that sad? but im not gonna break up with him.. but yeah..

Im gonna write some more. Im just gonna ramble on.

We are so poor. My mom gets 40$ every 2 weeks, and that money is to get us food… i guess it last good b.c there is NOTHING in our fridge.. I dont mean nothing as in no good food i mean nothing. no coke… there is a peice of cheese.. and milk. one cup cake. and ketchup and mustard and stuff ect.. and yeah..its crazy.

But yeah. Im hungry. We do have coffee tho.

I no im not pregnant. We used 2. But i just wish i was. I wish a miricle would happen and i would be. ugh. I no that is not gonna happenn. but i hope so. I always day dream about it. sometimes i wake up at 7 30 and lay in bed until 9 just thinking about having a baby, and thinking about how ill tell nick and everything. ugh. i no.. its a deppression. and obsession. i no.. ugh. I cant help it. But im too stressful right now to have a baby and i told Nick that. but ugh.. oh well. gonna go

bye